October 29, 2012

26-26

29 Okt 2012
12.37 AM

Hello guyss...
In this past few posts I see a significant increase of my pageviews graphic. I think its because of I register my blog in NuffnangX. :o Its never happen before, really.. Usually my blog been views for 8-10 when I post something new. But now it went to 40-50 views when I have a new post.. LOL.. Awesome!

I just hoping that whenever anyone read my blog, they can feel entertain.. :) So go get your blog register at NuffnangX!


So.......

Not in the positive mood at all, because today I miss David so much...

He's away for a job trip to Kalimantan for 2 weeks since 26 Okt.. :(

Actually he ever go to job trips for a few times before. Usually he go for 2 weeks to 1 month trip.. So far so good... But this time, what makes me sad is, he's now in some kind of jungle which don't have any communication signal. I never been not talking to him for more than 2 days.. This is the 2nd day and I already not in a good mood. I don't know what will happen in 2 weeks from now if I still not be able to communicat with him.. T_T

The side effects of this negative mood are it makes me feel much lazier.. I don't have any passion to even finish my Internship Report.. T_T Usually I always talk to him everytime I feel down.. ~_~


I hate myself being with these negative energy!!

So, to let my stress out, I think I better put some post about him again...
Its about David birthday celebration back in March..

Hahahaha.. I know lar, Its been a long time already, why I still post it? LOL..
Actually I want to post it earlier, but I forgot.. ~_~! So sorry...


So here it is...

He's now 26... and 26 is the day he left me this month :( That's why I title this post, 26-26..
;p


Unimportant but still need to be show : How do I look that day.. LOL


I bought him Strawberry Cheesecake from CheeseCakeFactory...
It's his favorite.. He love strawberry & cheese.. and CCF Strawberry Cheese Cake is one of the most delicious cheesecake ever!!

Even I, myself, who didn't like eating cheese cake, love it!


Yummy ritee?? Ok, now Im drolling!

We went there with his mother & sister...
We decide to take our time talking and eat a bit of the cake, while also taking a picture of it.. :)

Above is David with his mother, and Under is with his sister.. By the way, her sister name Lisa too.. It's just that her name has 2 S, so its written as Lissa.


and this is with me.. When my hair is still a little blonde and short.. :)

After that, we went to Plaza Indonesia, just to hang out, and window shopping..and..
snacking frozen yogurt at JCo Ex,

I believe I had the yogurt pic somewhere, but I can't find it.. So here is our vain pic to replace it.. ;p

After tired walking around, we decide to ate dinner at Pepper Lunch...

It's quite good actually, but Im not good at mixing it, so, my rice half burn.. :x but still taste good..  Hahahaha...

Soo... Till here everybody!!
Ohyeah, I forgot...
This is how do I look now..

Have much more longer hair now... :) Dyed hair in dark brown...

Will post again soon... Byebye~~~~






October 19, 2012

What Beauty Means

19 Okt 2012

Well well... HELLO!!
been MIA from bloggin a while.. Im so sorry to myself..

Anyway, the other days, I have some argument with my friends about beauty..
It's all began when we're talking before heading to class..
And suddenly we're talking about beauty topic...



Two of my friends are complains about tiny red spot they got in their face and they dont know how to get rid of it.. and I suggest them to use some cream, like hazeline snow or something.. I said, "you guys needs to wear face cream all the time, dont do it just for a while and then stop.. There will be no effect.. If you choose the right cream and really apply it everyday, there should be effect..."

Then I said, "Im quite happy with my skin now, because two years ago I have all the pimples and acnes and red scars all over my face and now they all gone.. Now my face is a lot better.. and Im happy of the result... Im glad I found my perfect acnes medicine... I also use Hazeline Snow all the time, and it helps get rid my red scars.."

My friend, who maybe can't see me happy at all, answer this..."well, I still can see your acne scars here.." she pointed at my low cheeks, "even after you put foundation..."

Then Im thinking, "WTF? Cant you just shut ur mouth? Why you cant see me happy?" Ofcourse la, sometimes I still have acnes, but they really gone so fast, and acne scars can't dissapear so quickly rite?? Who she thinks I am?? I feels attacked by her statement...

But I choose to drop it, and don't answer her...
Then we continue discuss about beauty...

I said, "when we gets older, we'll have wrinkle, so we need to use anti aging product.. and we also need to wear sunblock everyday, coz of the UV from sun can damage our skin.. If we get older, It all will shows up"

Then my friend says, "Well, my mom saids I better not use any product, coz It can harm my skin. My sisters all don't like to use powder at all, and never wear any face cream.. They had the best skin..."

At this point, Im so angry because I felt she's attacking me by always going on the opposite of my statement. And based on these two statement earlier, I felt that she's attacking my Make-Up Habbit... *soangry*



Im thinking lots of mean answer for her, such like,

"well, what do your mom knows? She even didn't know Hazeline Snow at all, a famous brand of whitening cream since a long long year already..."

I also wants to answer like this,

"Your sister is age 17 to 19 years old..  At that kind of age, they have the best skin.. I also have the best skin around my 17 to 19 years old.. No ACNES at all.. but what will happen after you passed 30 or even 26 years old? Do you think your skin will always so puffy and smoothly??"

But thanks God the bells ringing, otherwise, there will be a war at my campus. :l

I just said like this.."whatever you think la" and going to class room.


But I still so upset...
Okay lar, Im not a beauty expert...

But I read a lot then her.. I stumble to lots of website and beauty blogger.. and I know that we need to take care our skin, because when it comes to older age, our body also weeker... Ofcourse the skin will got affected too... Thats why I start to use sunblock since now... Its very important because one of the ways to prevent wrinkle and anti aging is to use sunblock.. Its also help to protect us from the sun...

And since I use sunblock, I really see the result.. I dont have to be afraid of the sun anymore.. and my face skin can't get darker...

Actually, its okay if at that time she doesnt wants to believe me at all.. I also dont have intention to being bossy or teaching her? I just share the information that I get... We're just talking rite? Well, after I get home, I research again about this topic and this is what I've got...

Beauty and skin care go hand in hand, especially for those who want to show off their best with confidence. Starting good skin habits at a young age will contribute to younger looking skin in our not so young years later on. Good eating habits of healthy organic foods too contribute to more beautiful younger looking skin. Besides good daily habits of serious skin care, there is also the very strong advise of skin cancer doctors to never smoke and always use skin protection in the sun. 
Beauty skin care is not just a facial issue; serious skin care must include all of your skin from head to toes. According to dermatologist MD Dennis Gross, the absolute worst thing we can do to our skin is unprotected sun exposure. Doctor Gross goes on to say that 90% of the skin's wrinkles, dark spots and sagging skin are caused by unprotected sun exposure. This is why doctors highly recommend always wearing SPF 15 sun protection products all of the time. This is especially important to start these habits at an early age for those with the most sensitive skin. 
The reasons for our skin changes over time, have to directly do with skin collagen breaking down. As already mentioned, there are several reasons why this happens, but there is now ways to change some of the damage done. We can do things to prolong and even make some skin reversals of damage that will take off years without the expensive doctors office treatments. There now are proven products out there with collagen repair that will improve the damage. Retinol and organic skin care antioxidants such as green tea extract and vitamin C are also affordable and proven to bring back your skins beauty without even having to use harsh or expensive products. 
Aside from beauty skin care repairs; there is also the importance of your daily facial cleansing habits. Most now understand that there are very few soaps properly balanced for facial skin use. Many will dry out our skin and only the soaps or cleansers made just for our facial washing should be used. Over washing is also bad for our face, because of removing to many natural oils that should be there. Luke warm water is recommended too, for reasons of hot or cold breaking down capillaries. One more very important point for serious beauty skin care is once a week exfoliation. A good at home kit is affordable and easy to use for anyone. It is important though to use small-grained exfoliates and not large grained because of large grains being damaging more than helping. With the small-grained exfoliate usage once a week; a glow will come back to you skin. Moisturize is too very important to keep that glow going. It is important to moisturize for all skin types except skin with acne issues. Depending on your skin type, moisturizing will vary on how much or how little you use.  http://www.streetdirectory.com/travel_guide/34843/beauty_tips/the_importance_of_skin_care.html

If only I could continue the argument and show her this article.. =_=" It doesnt matter what she said now... I'll just do it on my own way, which is, I know taking care of my skin is very important... She'll regret it later anyway, after getting older... *mwahahahaha devil laugh*

So, base on other website, this is how we taking care of our skin face...

There are four basic steps to follow which is essential to take care of your facial skin and should be done according to your skin type.
Cleansing the Facial skin is very important to avoid acne and other skin problems. It is essential to get rid of any impurities such as make up and dirt particles, before you sleep so that your skin will be able to breathe properly in the night. Wash your face with Natural face wash. You can make your natural cleanser or you can buy a natural cleanser which has natural cleansing ingredients. A mixture of 2 teaspoons witch hazel, 3 tablespoons oatmeal and a few drops of water is an excellent Natural Face Cleanser. Apply this mixture to your face. Always use upward and outward circular motion when applying the application. Rinse the face with lots of warm water, A mashed banana into the mixture will add more nourishment to your skin. 
Toning the Skin is another important step for skin care. Toners cleanse the skin even deeper and help remove any remnants of dirt particles that may have been left behind. Toner also cools, hydrates, nourishes and freshens up your skin. It also tighten and close up pores that may have been opened when cleansing. A mixture of green tea, chamomile or ginseng tea, mineral/distilled water with lavender or lemon is a good facial toner.

Exfoliating the Skin which is remove dead cells from the skin is the yet another important step for Natural Face Skin Care. It will rejuvenate the skin and take away the wrinkles and fine lines from the face giving the skin a younger glowing skin. 
Just as much as we drink water to hydrate our bodies our skin also needs hydration and therefore it is essential to Moisturize the Skin which will soften the skin and help to retain its natural moisture. It is also a protection of the skin against cold, hot and windy weathers Virgin coconut oil/butter is a good moisturizer. If you want to use it as a lip balm you can add peppermint or spearmint oil. 
Daily care of your skin will prevent your skin from many skin conditions which are detrimental to your personality and give you a skin that will make yourself proud of. http://www.bizymoms.com/sircuit-skincare/natural-face-skin-care.html

So.. I think this is for now... :) Till next post!




October 2, 2012

3th Anniversary...♥

1 Oktober 2012
11.00 PM

It's been 3 years since I've been in a relationship with David. I've never thought that I'll be able to be with a person this long. 



When I look back at my past life... Let's say that I'm not really lucky when it comes to love relationship. I think I'm the type of girl that boys love to be friends with. Not for being a lover. *deepsigh*

All boys that I ever have a crush on, always makes me as his bestfriend. *Friendzoned* They share their love stories.. They tell me who they have crush on, etc. +_+ LOL.

BUT, when there's a boy that actually have a crush on me, I dont like them. I'll stay away from them. Afraid to give a mixed signal to them.. Lol.. So... in that time, Im not really sure, what Love is..

When I was a child.. I love watching "Huan Zhu Ge Ge" (anyone knows?) a taiwanese drama that taught me about Love and Friendship in a naive ways... Little me believe that when you love someone, you must sacrifice willingly. But after I growup.. I learn that life isn't that easy. Life aren't works like movies. The more you sacrifice, the more you got hurt. So.. I start to close my heart for either love and friendship.

Then... With a help of my friends, God makes me realize that, I don't need to be afraid. If you be good to someone, then you'll meet someone that good to you too. I don't need to be worries to get hurt anymore, because I know, in the end, everything will going well. Karma does exist. If you bad to people, then people will bad to you. If you good, they'll be good.

When David and I start our relationship... I think it's going pretty well... I decide to open up to him, show him the real character of myself. I want him to love me for who I am. If he can't take it, I'll still have time to look for a new one. LOL. I let him see how I angry.. How I cried... How I worried.. How I have a bad mood.. How I make a joke.. How I laugh..

I learn a lot from my friends relationship. From my point of view, there's no need to hold on yourself and not showing your "Real". This will just makes a conflict.. There will be someone who feels cheated. It's better to learn about each other from early, so you can decide whether you'll accept it or not and so do your partner.

Just admit it, it's not comfortable if we can't be ourself infront of a person that we love.

Ofcourse, more we open ourself, more difference we found about each other. He's a family guy who love to stay at home all the time. I'm more of myself, who love hanging around anywhere except home. He love to share everything (stuff), Im not. I rather keep everything for myself. :p 

He love to save money, I love to spend money. He doesn't know how to express his feelings, I'm over express.. He sometimes too stingy, I doesn't care how much I spend as long as it's for myself. ;p 

He's very close to his family... I'm just so-so. So, all of this differences make us fight A LOT. There's a couple time that we almost...done. But, he's extremely patient.. Even after I become so egoistic, he still wants to be with me. He said he knows my bad, but also he knows my goodness. So it doesn't matter. He believe that I'll change someday. (NEVAAA!!) LoL. But I appreciate it. 


I do learn a lot from him.. I learn how to be more patient, how to compromize, how to
share with other people.. and how to accept that we can't always have what we want..  From me, I do believe he learn my sense of humour. ;p



Strangely, I don't have any feelings for him at first.. Even after we were together in a relationship, for a couple months, I still feel nothing. But after know each other better, time after time, I start to fall in love with him and its just getting bigger from time to time...

For this 3th years, I just hope and pray that both of us could be more mature, learn how to compromize with each other, and just keep loving each other from time to time.. 

























For the long last relationship.. ^^